On grief and separation
We forget how grief feels. We have to.
Similarly to how mothers forget the pain of laboring and childbirth — they have to create all those endorphins after the birth to help them forget the pain. Otherwise they’d never choose to have more children.
Hero, Teacher, Cat
“We have a 13-year-old cat at home who really needs a friend,” we told the volunteer at Happy Cats Haven rescue in February 2018.
“Well, WE have a 13-year-old cat who needs a friend!” she said, guiding my husband, Adam, and I into a room where multiple cats looked up from their naps. “His name is Jacob.”
To Love What is Lovely and Does Not Last
Mary Oliver’s words repeat in my mind as I pull up the tomato plants for their last harvest.
It’s October, and inside is Jacob, the 19-year-old cat I’ve loved for six years since adopting him.
I Quit My Job Today
I just put in my notice that i’m leaving my job of 12 years.
I feel like I’m freefalling because I have nothing to catch me,
nothing obvious at least. No job lined up.
but i’m just letting go and letting myself fall.
Let’s Have a Meeting About Capitalism
Look! I’ve achieved senior level in my field!
Here, life is measured in moments between meetings.
Meetings where we’ll talk about the work I need to do.
No SSRIs? Cry, Cry, Cry
Things that make me cry now that I’m off SSRI antidepressants: pretty much any song in a minor chord, poetry, playing piano, the ice cream truck going by.